Musings of MK's Twisted Mind

This is the last post for my Vox blog. I won't delete the account for two reasons. 1) I don't want to see Amanda around Vox and 2) I still want to be able to read/comment on other Vox blogs.

This blog is really kind of pointless anymore. The community I was a part of has kind of dissolved (at least where I'm concerned), and any "real" writing I do is over at www.mandikaye.com.

It's been a fun year, but it's definitely time to say goodbye. I'll still pop in to read the happenings in my neighborhood.

Goodbye, Vox!

This is the funniest, most pointless website I've seen in my life.

Is it Christmas?

It's going really well! Here's where I'm sewing:

Sewing Table

It's a pretty sweet setup. I'm not actually using the fiberglass table part yet. I won't need it until I go to sew all the rows together.

Here's my first block (and DAMN did I do a good job! :) I'm impressed with my corners!):

First Block

And that one corner that looks a little off...well...it's my first block! Give me a break, people! :)

And here are my first two completed rows. Seriously, this is turning out to look way better than I expected!

First two rows

No, the rows aren't sewn together yet. But that's 10 blocks of 9 squares each. That's 90 squares I've sewn together! Wow!

My camera came tonight! Woohoo!!!! Here are the first pictures I took with it:

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Isn't she gorgeous?

So theoretically, my "new" (used, but new to me) sewing machine is going to be delivered tomorrow. Yay! So tonight I spent some time "designing" the 9 patch quilt I'm going to make.

What do you think?

Quilt 1

I'm going to add another row in the center, both horizontally and vertically. I just ran out of wall space!

I usually don’t do stuff like meme’s and contests and things on my other blog. But I have to. Just this once.

I’m having a contest to name my other blog! I’m not going back to Imago Dei and Mandi Kaye is just too plain and boring.

So, I need a name. And you all are far more creative than I am, so I’m asking you for help!

What does the winner get?

A guest post on www.mandikaye.com. The winner of the contest will be able to write a blog post on the topic of their choice (excluding erotica) and perhaps get a slightly different readership than their normal blog gets. It’s not much, I know, but it’s the best I can do.

Entries should be submitted via comments on this post no later than Friday, September 28th.

It’s my blog, so I get to pick the one I like the best. If there’s not one I like by then, I’ll extend the deadline.

Questions?

Why are you still reading? You should be off thinking of an incredible name for the blog!

Radio has impeccable timing sometimes. On my way to work this morning, I was composing an email in my head (am I the only one who does that?) to my new mentor. I asked her a few weeks ago to be my spiritual mentor, and she finally agreed to it, but she posed the question to me, “But what, I wonder, would I have to offer you?  How could where I have been and what I am and where I am going be what you need?” She went on to say:

I cannot make you love Jesus.  I cannot force you to accept Him as the One who came to save you, your very own Savior.  I can’t assuage your doubts about God.  I cannot argue the validity of faith by science or philosophy.  Your inner heart is holy and private ground.  I would not presume to force anything upon you.

Isn’t she great? She closed by asking me, “But would I love to be used of God to love you into a life you love?”

So my answer to her is going to be that I need that love. I’ve got the choice down. But there’s so much of me that feels cold and hard when it comes to God. I find myself wondering if it’s too late for me. Has this period of doubt permanently banished me to a life without feeling?

And as I was thinking this through this morning - thinking how much Jeanie’s life and passion would do me good - this song by Rush of Fools came on the radio:

I’ve been here before
Now, here I am again
Standing at the door
Praying You’ll let me back in

To label me
A prodigal would be
Only scratching the surface
Of who I’ve been known to be

Turn me around, pick me up
Undo what I’ve become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, I need Your help
I can’t do this myself
You’re the only one
Who can undo what I’ve become

I focused on the score
But I could never win
Trying to ignore
A life of hiding my sin

To label me
A hypocrite would be
Only scratching the surface
Of who I’ve been known to be

Turn me around, pick me up
Undo what I’ve become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, I need Your help
I can’t do this myself
You’re the only one
Who can undo what I’ve become

Make every step lead me back to
The sovereign way that You

Turn me around, pick me up
Undo what I’ve become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, I need Your help
I can’t do this myself
You’re the only one who can undo
You are the only one who can undo
You’re the only one who can undo
What I’ve become

 Uhhhh…. yeah. What they said.

Are there still people out there who read this when I post new stuff?

I may be paranoid, but it seems like a lot of my Vox buddies have falled away since my faith struggle began a few months ago.

Am I just crazy?

Just a lil notification to all ya'll - my new URL is http://mandikaye.vox.com instead of http://praisingfool.vox.com

My understanding is that the old one forwards to the new one, but just in case I wanted to make sure you guys knew.