3 posts tagged “life”
I've discovered an incredible song. One that describes me fairly perfectly. I never realized that I felt this way until I heard the feelings vocalized in this song. And while I love the duet version with Reba, this is the original, sung only by the writer, Kelly Clarkson.
I've also realized that I love a new artist, Taylor Swift. When this young artist first came out, I really didn't like her. Then I heard this song and fell in love!!
And then I heard another song that perfectly describes where I am in life, also by Taylor:
I hope you enjoy these as much as I do!
What's new with me, you ask? Get ready....
The boy and I decided to give it another go on Thursday. We both missed each other a lot, and I finally realized that I didn't break up with him because God told me to...that was just my excuse. The fact of the matter is that I listened to my friends too much and I got scared. I have trust and intimacy (not THAT kind of intimacy! get your minds out of the gutter!) issues. And we were starting to get close and go into that good relationship place and it freaked me out.
Remember I told you I cried over this? And I never cry. So we'll see where it goes. I got to see him last night and we watched 50 First Dates and Red Dragon. Love the first one. The latter one was weird (but then, what Hannibal Lector movie isn't?)
I'm in a wedding tomorrow. And I'll be wearing a tye-dyed bridesmaid dress. The bride will be wearing a tye-dyed wedding dress. The ushers will be wearing tye-dyed tuxedo t-shirts. The groom? He'll be wearing his dress army uniform. Should make for an interesting ceremony!
It seems that I spend a lot of time frustrated at life. Or at other people. My constant prayer these days is, "Lord, change my heart!" I'm only 23, but I look around and I see a lot of immaturity in a lot of people. And people who are older than me shouldn't be immature. People who are married shouldn't be immature.
Or maybe...my preconceived notions about these things could just be wrong.
Is it wrong to be frustrated when married people you know refuse to keep a clean house or set up a schedule of any sort in order to run an effective household?
Is it wrong to be frustrated that I sound like my mother when I get frustrated?
All I can say is...Lord, change my heart!
